Ice Cream on Christmas

 If it is your life’s goal to be happy, you quickly learn that nothing is by coincidence and that everything always flows. Try paying attention to any moment in life and watch how things never happen by coincidence.

I was home alone and decided to grab my laptop from downstairs to finish up some work. While in the dining room I could hear the icecream truck from outside and it instantly made me think of my son Jaylen. It hadn’t even been a full day since he left with his dad to head back to Michigan for the summer but I missed him already. If he were here now he’d come racing through the door from outside to ask for a couple dollars for ice cream. If he had just gotten allowance he wouldn’t ask me for money at all he’d very hurriedly ask me if I wanted anything from the truck. I’d always say, “no but thank you.” and he’d always say, “ok!” and hurry out the door. Times he didn’t have money and it was almost pay day for him (allowance) he’d ask to borrow money and I’d never want it back.

Because the sound of the music made me miss my son, I hurried to grab money from my purse on the kitchen counter and enjoy an ice cream cone. I knew that he’d want me to do that rather than be sad. Hearing the music of the ice cream truck quickly fade down the street I  quickly grabbed a $20 bills from my bag. 

As I headed out of my front door I walked to the end of my driveway and saw the van rounding the corner heading to the street behind my house. Determined to get an in ice cream in the name of Jaylen, I fast walked past the side of my house past the homes of the neighbors behind me. I ran into one of Jaylen’s friends on my walk, remembering my $20 bill in hand I quickly told him to go get everybody that wanted ice cream.  

As I approached the van I remember seeing all of these colorful pictures of the items for sale.I mean that’s how you pick what you want from the ice cream truck, well in this case a van. Everyone knows the ice cream decision stance, you stand back fold your arms and stare up at the pictures. The best picture wins. While all the other kids gathered to stare at what they wanted as well, remembering why I was here in the first place I asked the woman in the passenger seat if she knew my son. She asked me how old he was and I told her ten. She looked at me with great surprise and said she thought that I was sixteen. Flattered, I replied, “no”.  and smiled. While the kids were grabbing their ice cream she asked me where he was and I explained that he was in Michigan with his father for the summer. She asked me if he was with family and I replied yes. When I said that he was with family she shook her head yes and smiled as an affirmation to me that he was absolutely ok. I truly think my spirit went outside for that affirmation and not the actual ice cream itself because it made me feel better. 

Then realizing that all the children had their ice cream and so did I in my hand melting away, I quickly asked for my total so that everyone could be on their way. She told me $14 and seeing that I had extra money left over I asked her if she had any potato chips, candy or soda and she replied, “no but I have biscuits.” Mistaken that maybe I had misheard her due to accent I asked her could I see. When she pulls up an actual pack of cheese crackers aka biscuits I burst into laughter. I was ticked and she laughed because I laughed although she had no clue what was funny. I quickly said to her that I didn’t mean to laugh at her but she has no clue what money she could make if she had more product. I then began to think very rapidly and my mouth was moving quicker than I could keep up. I shot about 10-15 ideas at her at once about how she could better her business. She looked at me in awe for all of five minutes while I talked, the children still standing behind me ice cream melting in their hands. 

She looked at me in awe, her and her husband. It’s like I was in a zone. I apologized for over talking them and said I can’t help it. When I see people functioning at the bare minimum I just want to help, my spirit just wants to help. I want to share with them my ideas and concepts I’ve used in building my brand and business. I want to take their mind frame of old thinking , set ways and fear to a new level of wellness which will show in the abundance of their life. We exchanged contact information and as I walked away, jingle bells played over the ice cream vans loudspeaker. 


Best day ever

I Iove the way Denim stared at me this morning in a “Please forgive me” kind of way. He stared at me begging for forgiveness this morning because yesterday he jumped out of the car as Jaylen opened the door to take out the garbage. I initially didn’t even feel like even get out of the car because our dog Denim does this all of the time. They say that animals act and behave very much like their owners so when he wants to be wild and free I get it. The only thing is that Jaylen is so freaking kind hearted and such a worry wort he wants to wait for him each time. Jaylen being an only child calls him his bro. They fight, play everything, so when he disappears Jaylen worries until he is back. In order to show that I cared, I get out of the car to help look for a few minutes. We were already running late for school so I told Jaylen that Denim would be fine and we had to go. Jaylen worried about Denim all day long. Melissa my and I spent the whole day not working which is so unlike me. I am a workaholic but something about this day felt like fun the very moment I allowed it to happen. Melissa and I went to the office for just a few minutes. I took a few emails, she finished a project that she had due and when we were both finished the task for leaving was to go and get mailing envelopes from the box and supplies store. DrIving and jamming to Drake, As I took our exit off the freeway, I got the idea to grab a quick snack. It wasn’t quite lunch or breakfast time, so I stopped at the Publix grocery store on the way. I usually do a bowl of fresh fruit. It’s so unlike me to try new things when it comes to many areas of my life. It takes practice to untrain and go the other way. Sometimes my mind literally tricks me sometimes into thinking that new things won’t taste as good as the current things. Inspired by the yogurt parfaits Melissa made for us earlier that week, I took a quick Instagram pic of the beautiful display and grabbed two for us to eat. We ate our parfaits outside and the view was amazing. We left there and got the world’s best mani-pedi’s across the street. Left there and went to the bead store and bought the most beautiful pieces ever. Left there and finally got our envelopes. Grabbed Jaylen from school and took him to get his hair cut by Rocky. Melissa and I grabbed the most amazing lattes at the Starbucks next door while we waited for Jaylen. Jaylen had been asking all week if he could grow his hair out a bit. As a parent it’s so hard letting go of your grip but I agreed knowing that he would know what was best for him. We were sitting on the patio and I saw the excitement in his eyes as he walked toward us. His cut was the bomb! I gave him my Starbucks gold card and he grabbed a hot chocolate. I remembered he took a sip and smiled. Said it was the best ever got chocolate ever. I remember I noticed Melissa still had her pedicure flops on and I laughed joking how surprised I was that the toe part hadn’t broke yet. Guess what! As we walked across the street, her toe part broke!! Haha dead in the middle of the crosswalk. Jaylen and I had the freaking laugh of the day!! I’m still laughing. We had to grab Jaylen clothes for his choir performance and distinguished gentleman’s club. Melissa walked from TjMaxx to Ross with us bare foot on one side and neither store had sandals in the entire store. She spotted a Payless from the front window of Ross so Jaylen and I pushed her on a cart to Payless. She bought a new pair of red American Eagle flip flops for 5 bucks #HappyGirl . Next stop was Target for khakis. I couldn’t find any in TjMaxx or Ross and my schedule was packed already. We had no time to spare. Being a mom is like being a super hero and I knew Target had all the fly kid stuff. We walked back across the street and and headed downstairs to Target. We talked about Halloween the whole way there. I want to be a Mermaid, Melissa a hot 70’s chick and Jaylen the Scream guy “Death”. Imagine my face as a mother but oh well it is Halloween lighten up. We found the most amazing clothes and shoes at Target. Went back to the office to have a photo shoot and when we finally made it home of course Denim was safe inside. As we walked in Jaylen waited anxiously to tell his bro what he thought of his behavior. Me playing along and kind of upset too at Denim for staying out all day long, I didn’t look at him until this morning and that’s when he stared at me with those puppy dog eyes. I absolutely loved that. S

First night in Veags


I arrived at 1 am. I was exhausted, kind of getting my thoughts and feelings together about being on my birthday trip alone. I wanted food and sleep. I had no idea how much fun I was about to have. 5/16/13

To be Christ like in today’s world. Think bigger think deeper. Think.

To be Christ like, in my opinion is to never allow the things that happen before you, break you down. Turn the other cheek not because you have one more but because from you there is an abundance. See what you come from is an infinite being, how could you believe you have yet not an ounce of that. See no time is ever so troublesome that you don’t have another cheek to turn, I am the beginning and the end. Without breath I breath and without cheek you produce another, you are from me. If you were anything like them you could not see your own beauty. What a blessings those nights you cried alone cause the very pit of your being knew there had to be something else to it ad so there was. You simply do this because you know what’s ahead is a heaven right here on Earth that they couldn’t ever comprehend.